Reconciliation and Recreation

 I think that in light of recent events, it's time things changed with me.  I've begun a process of reconciling with past issues and redesigning myself both in state of mind and general presence.  Since work was slow, I spent the day re-reading my old LiveJournal postings and quite frankly, they were disgusting.  In all truthfulness, I sounded like her and I was utterly appalled, though I have noticed some changes from 2005 till now in my general maturity but it's not enough.  Things I've learned this year:

1)  The past needs to stay in the past.  No more bringing up sore feelings and trying to reach out to people I used to talk to.  If we've stopped talking, it was for a reason and I should no longer try to contact them.  If they wish to reconnect with me, they can initiate it.

2)  No more being so open about every single little thing in my life.  It's time I actually had a private life.  People don't need to know every single detail and every single thought.  In fact, they'd probably appreciate that.

3)  No more allowing people to friend me on Facebook if I do not talk to them.  Yes, I might have gone to high school or college with you but that does not mean we are friends and I want to let you in my life.  I need to not be afraid of the "decline" button.

That's pretty much it for now.  I had sent some thank yous/apologies to old friends for my behavior and two of them pretty much bit me in the ass - it's likely the third will as well.  As sad as it is to see people who used to be so dear to me move so far away in my life, it's best that way.  For everyone.

Reconciliation and Recreation are my mottoes for 2012.  I mean, hey, we do only have 10 months and 19 days until the world goes to shit anyways.  Might as well live it up as best I can.

(Originally posted to Mindful Fiascos, 1.31.2012.)